Done.

hi again.
update: for the sake of my sanity i have decided not to weigh myself any more this week. i am officially claiming my bday weight loss plan as a defeat. that's just the way it goes. not every plan works out and you don't achieve every goal you set out to. i'm not happy about it but i need to put it behind me now. the reason i have decided to stop today instead of going until sunday is that i already know what the result will be on sunday. and if i waited until then there is a really good chance i'd be in a bad mood for my bday and we can't have that.
so the plan is to enjoy the next few days as much as possible and get back on track next week after my bday. what i will need to do next week is figure out a way to get out of this plateau that i am in right now. so if anyone has any suggestions that would be great. i think i may need to set up a strict diet plan for maybe like 2 or 3 weeks. just something to get me back to losing.
well that's all. no more crazy person rants for now. at least not until next week when i realize i gained 10 lbs this weekend =)

I Hate Everyone

Including today I have 5 days until my bday. Last week I had said I wanted to lose 4 more lbs before my bday. Well it's been 5 days since then and I think I've been doing a pretty good job. However the scale does not agree with me. Somehow I am up 1 lb today. Awesome.

Ok so here are my thoughts on this. For the most part it's just really frustrating and makes me mad and makes me want to give up. Like, I'm sorry did my body just forget to notice that I went to the gym, the place I hate most in life, 5 miserable days in a row last week?? Um, hello? And as far as eating goes I've been pretty good I think. Not perfect - but certainly better than the week before. So that on it's own should give me at least a pound or two, right?

I feel like one of those fat people on the Biggest Loser who sometimes gain weight one week instead of losing. Like how the hell do you gain weight on the Biggest Loser?? All you do is work out! For like 6 hours a day! What is wrong with you people????

I talked about dealing with plateuas before. To be honest I thought that by adding in the gym to my already pretty good diet that would help kick me out of this phase. Guess not.

On the other hand... well there's not much in this hand but here's what I've got. There is a really good chance that I'm retaining some water this morning. Every meal I ate yesterday was fairly salty. Especially the 2 small snacks I had last night instead of dinner. So you guys should all know how much of an effect that has on the scale for me. So... maybe that can account for the additional pound - maybe 2 pounds. Maybe.

Other than that I'm just pissed. Oh and while I'm at it - you know what else I'm pissed about? I'm pissed about the fact that I am living in a house where I can't control what shows up in the kitchen. Like some days I come home and there's a box of glazed donuts sitting on the counter. And other days, like yesterday, there is a pint of Ben and Jerrys Half Baked Ice Cream in the freezer. Some things I can resist. Like so far I've managed to resist the donuts - not sure how but I have. However, I happen to think that Half Baked ice cream is one of the most delicious things ever made on this planet. And if I had nothing to worry about I would eat it all day everyday while sitting on the couch and watching tv. That's basically heaven to me. So no - I can't resist the ice cream. I had a bite of it yesterday. ONE bite. I promise. And even though I don't think that it had anything to do with the extra pound today it just makes me mad that I even have to put up with shit like this in my own house. Oh wait I forgot, I'm not living in my own house. That's right. I'm living with my mom, her boyfriend (he's to blame for the ice cream) and his daughter. And not only does fat people food show up in my house but my healthy diet food always disappears. I CANNOT LIVE LIKE THIS ANYMORE. SOMEONE GET ME OUT OF HERE.

Ok I'm done. Miss Wilde... I may be taking you up on your Apple Cider Vinegar trick. Cause with the way this week is going, if I dont lose at least one more pound before Sunday, I'm not showing up to my bday. I'll let you know how it works out.

Yay I reached 1000 page views!!! Thanks for reading everyone.

So far so good on the diet/exercise plan this week. I went to the gym for the 5th day in a row today. I mean anyone who knows me understands how unheard of that is for me. I hate the gym. Even just one day there is one too many for me. But I don't really have a choice.

Anyway that's the update for now. I haven't had a chance to weigh myself though cause I haven't been by my scale first thing in the morning for a few days now. I think I mentioned this before - I NEVER weigh myself unless it's first thing in the morning - after I pee and before I drink any water. Otherwise it's totally off. I mean, hello?

Ok that's all. 9 more days til my bday! Yay me!!

It's Crunch Time

Hi Friends! Still here I promise.
Not much time today so I'm getting right to the point. I have 11 days until my 26th birthday. What that means is we're stepping it up into high gear. Last week was not great. And last weekend was even more not great. But that's all in the past now. This Monday I got back on track and as of this morning I'm basically back to where I was before last week. So no big deal there. But I really do want to lose just a few more pounds before the bday. I totally think I can do it. So far this week has been great. I've been to the gym 3 days in a row now and my eating is good. I'm working a ton over the next 10 days which isn't fun but pretty good for the diet. So the plan is pretty simple. Eat less and go to the gym as much as possible. No fancy diet plans or anything. So for those of you who are here in San Diego - your support is much appreciated. And when you see my on my bday feel free to tell me how great I look. Just kidding! But not really.
Ok that's all the time I've got. I'll try to check in again in a few days and let you know how I'm doing.
Oh... and I'm like 15 page views away from 1000 on my blog!!! Woo hoo! Let's do this.